It's my Sunday empty mood

I thought there will b a time where I  just can take a very relaxed deep breath and keep sighing without any emotions bother.  I always pray for it. Getting my mood to be set up at this moment brings another 'other world' to be adapted with. I hope for it every time ticking. I would love to feel it and be it in my arms like it's the most physical thingy that I can see it thru. But where to find such of that things. While other people laughing around us, no one will notice what are we thinking of, what are we praying for. for life, for future or other world. And now, I let Westlife gets back my mood on Soledad -???-